September 2019 - Another School Year

• MY MOM WANTS US TO READ THE BIBLE - recently, my mom has been attending meetings of a religious group. and i think it's good for her. but she seems to be so involved in it that she wants us to do the same... she asked us to download a free app of the bible and read it everyday... i know she means well, but i'm not really the religious type. hello?
• I HAVE NO LINGUISTICS TEACHER - i'm on my second year of masters and our linguistics teacher, two of them in fact, quit last summer. so we are left with no one to teach us how to overanalyze the english language. the ironic part is i was actually starting to love linguistics and i thought about specializing in it this year. gosh.
• I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY MASTERS AFTER - every time i meet people and they ask me what i want to do after, i have no concrete idea in my mind. is that wrong? maybe not. but it's scary because i'm such a control freak and the fact that i don't know what to do with my life after is just giving me anxiety.
• I REALLY THINK I DON'T WANT KIDS BUT BABIES ARE SO CUTE - let's be honest. babies are cute. okay, MOST babies are cute (because some them look like gnomes or whatever). MOST babies are cute and i can't help but think about having one. so i can have my own tiny toes to smell. hahaha. but then when i think about them growing up to be kids, naughty kids, manipulative kids, sick kids, i change my mind. kids can be cute. but raising them can be a lot of work. and i don't think i want to spend my life raising a child when i can't seem to raise my own self. haha.
• MUST - STOP - COMPARING - MY - LIFE - WITH - OTHERS - my friends have kids. or stable jobs. or both. and i am still stuck in limbooooooo. and it gives me anxiety. so i have to develop the habit of not comparing myself to others. i should focus on myself and what i'm doing. yes, when i do that, i feel more at ease. that i am doing my best to live my life everyday.